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MARYAM SUZANA. studying diploma in accountancy in UiTM Segamat, Johor. 20 *omagaaashgaspingwithhorror. likes to go around smiling like a pervert with no buttocks

HAAAAI. lama tak cakap kan. finals dah habis. no talking bout finals cause i don't wanna talk about it and it frustrates me to just think about it. semester dah habis. but i'm still stuck here. mungkin sebab rajin or sayang sangat kat uitm nih. alhamdulillah, i got to play KARISMA. eventhough takde lah terroorrrrr sangat, tapi boleh lah setakat nak main tuh. hahah :P after all the fairytales here, i had to accept the fact that fairytales are actually fairytales. and they don't happen in real life. i feel empty, nothing and actually lonely. my roommates are gone and i'm the only one in my room. i feel fine being alone sebab sibuk melayan perasaan. but i cannot help but feel lost. i am trying to focus right here but it feels so wrong. my love life is in a wreck. is it even considered as live life because i think i don't have the right to feel anything. but i do feel it. i feel like what TITANIC felt when it hit that iceberg and decided to sink killing 2500 people. i feel exactly like it. the sinking feeling. maybe i should find a sink and just sink in it. MANE SINK ?! okaaay. i am trying veeeeery hard right now not to think about it. tapi macam mane pulak tak fikir. dah ade depan mata. kalau dulu, boleh lah rase macam nak pandang or tunggu, sebab ade orang yang boleh dipandang or boleh ditunggu. but now, mane ade dah. dah orang lain punya. ya allah, i beg u, please help me get through this. i just wanna be friends without my heart burning when i see him. okaaaaay daaaaah. dah habis. hahah ;D stop moaning mrym and just move on with life. shit happens and you just have to handle it. macam mane nak handle shit ? senang je. ambiik segala kotoran and campak dalam jamban and flush ! then biar syabas uruskan. enough about all the telenovela thingy. training macam separuh penat separuh tak. i have to kuruskan badan lagi. dah gemuk lembab lah maknenye. tak cukup energy nak lari. uishhhh, panjang nye post nih. penat orang nak baca. ade ke orang nak baca. hahah ;P okaaaay. that's all for now. penaaaat. lapaaaar. baaaai. 

 i find this very calming. :) back to top?