cbox recommended. Width: 350px.

MARYAM SUZANA. studying diploma in accountancy in UiTM Segamat, Johor. 20 *omagaaashgaspingwithhorror. likes to go around smiling like a pervert with no buttocks

BRING BRING bla bla bla bla.
ABRACADABRA LA LA LA.
trials udah habis! woohhoo! but, the nightmare has just started. approximately 50 days lebih kurang to actually open up the books and be engrossed in it. somehow i miss the books. but upon opening it, rase nk tergolek pulak. tidak mengapa. apa yang penting? KERJASAMA!!
lama dah tak berblogging dan bnyk ketinggalan. well, i have to admit, this is not exactly my way of expressing my feelings. i'd rather talk than writing simple enough because, i don't have the time and my internet sucks. and somehow, it's a bit troublesome just to sit tight and start writing. but i do it sometimes, just to test out a new keyboard (like what i'm doing now) or just to drool around. during trials i had a lot of permasalahan yang tiba tiba melanda diriku. but come to think of it, tak usah dipkirkan sgt. but can't help it.
OK. what do you think if someone close to yoou suddenly pindah somewhere or build a new life somewhere or whhever she wants. you rebel at first but come to think that's it's her choice and who are we to stand in her way. so, we support her and vow to never lose contact. it seems ok for a while, then, you can see the difference. for parents out there, if you want to send your children to a different school, send them when they haven't got the chance of making any close friends anywhere. this makes it easier for everyone. i feel quite neglected when I left. i missed her a lot as she was the only one who could gaduh with me every single hour of the day (except for A). she was the one who i could depend on being my best friend. even though we never understood each other pretty well, but it was ok. she had dreams that she thought she would never fulfill if she stayed. she wanted a new life desperately. i don;t know whether she got what she wanted. but now, i realised something. i feel really sad just thinking bout it. dah terlalu banyak kawan aku hilang. sekarang sebijik hilang lagi.

i dont know whether she realises this, but she never contacts me aanymore. of course i cant contact her. how the heck am i supposed to call the school. we had a pact made that she would call me as often as she could. but now, i think it's been a few months since she called. her personal life is away from me. i never know now whats hot and whats not. at least i have the guts to fill her in every aspect that she has left since she got there. i asked someone, and she said think it in a positive way. maybe shes busy for our big exam. i know its hectic over there. but i think once a week is enough to actually tell me whats going on. at least i would know that she still remembers me. i tried thinking positively, until i saw a picture of her and her schoolmates. i felt really weirded out. they went out somewhere where we never got an inch nearby as it was too far away. but still, cant she make an effort to actually remember all her old friends. she did mention us once or twice, but still my feelings are the same. this is what i truly feel. i knew this would happen from the start. i had experience with this. i saw people close to me turn this way. i feel sad cause i dont know if they ever remembered the good times that they had with their oldies. but maybe im just overreacting. i think i am. but i just want to let it out. its been bugging me for a long time. i dont know if we are gonna be as close as before. ive lost one close friend last year and it was a big blow to me. trying to patch things up. hope its working. i dont like losing friends. for me, friends are like family. some are even certified family. sometimes i treasure them more than my family. dengan ini, saya ingin mengucapkan terima kasih kepada semua yang telah bnyk bersusah payah melayan kerenah saya yang macam batu dan monyet ini. saya tahu saya bnyk buat salah. saya akan memperbaikinya. kesian orang yang kene menahan perangaiku. i just hope that someday they feel its worth it to actually be my friend. sometimes, i cant help but feel lonely in the world. people seem to find me hard rock, but actually, i have feelings that i would like to share with people. but just to scared to. tidak mengapa. maybe ill meet the right person and hopefully, dapat jumpa jodoh. huahuahuahuahuahua! aku kahwin dulu AINIL!! hahah. whoa, this is a very long bloggy. well, ive poured out my feelings. i think i have to go to sleep to elak dari bangun 2 minutes before AMY comes. ok. im full with tomyam. night. daaaa. :)

back to top?